Auf Wiedersehen, Brasilien ("See you" Brazil)

This blog had a six-month lifespan and 39 posts. The "Vitor na Alemanha" blog had a one-year lifespan and 127 posts.

I am starting this post by saying this because right now I want to write more than 100 posts a year. I want to be in a new environment, be challenged, travel, meet people, learn languages, take pictures, study and work in a different culture. I want to explore more, have more insight, feel the words coming to me again. I want to feel this desire to share experiences that are so amazing that I just NEED to share them.

Most people kept asking me: "How long are you staying in Germany?"; "Why are you going back there?"; "What are you going to do next?"; "Do you already have a permanent job?" and other things like that. I am going to write here what I answered to them all: right now, I don't know. I have a plan, I want to do certain things, but I am not making any major choice yet. I am not ready for it, I simply don't want it. I feel like there is still a lot that I need to explore and find out before I can choose to settle down. It's something that screams inside of me and that I wouldn't be able to run away from. I want to keep studying and broadening my views. I felt good in Germany, as if I was heading somewhere, and I want to go back to this track. Where it leads to is a mistery also for me, but that I am willing to find out.

To my people in Brazil, I can only say that I love you very much and that I am not leaving anybody. I may move around, but I will never be comfortable with the idea of abandonment. My heart and my mind are not mine, they belong to my friends and my family. Therefore, it's never in one place, and never really far away. Wherever I go, you are all there. This is what pushes me forward.

Life is a series of goodbyes. It's the price we pay for falling in love with the world around us. We change and the world changes; yet we manage to keep loving it. The longing doesn't have to hurt so much if we realize that it is always going to be with us. After all, everything is temporary. Maybe learning how to deal with longing is ultimately learning how to love.

I am not saying goodbye, or "adeus"; I really prefer to use the german way here: "Auf Wiedersehen", or "until the next time we see each other" ("até a próxima"). I am going to keep sharing my life, that also belongs to all of you, especially through my new blog. See you there!